Friday, April 16, 2010

now that she knew

Maria felt like such an idiot now. Honestly, she hadn't planned on trying to kiss Heath. She knew he had a girlfriend. She understood that and still there she was... like some old habit or possibly sleepwalking into something. She wasn't sure what to call it.

She was in love with Heath the first moment she saw him. She knew he was what she wanted. Exactly. He was so different from anyone she'd ever met. At first, she was sure he'd be a snob, but he wasn't. He was easy going. Caring. It left her pleasantly surprised that she'd been right about him. She felt so right for him.

He would take her out of this rut she was in. He wasn't like anyone she had been with. Maria somehow always got stuck with just friends who were often more than friends. Yes, she had slept with co-workers before. It was one of those things that wasn't going to happen, but then it did. And she'd had trouble getting away from Mason. She had to leave. It was no turning back because if she stayed, it would be toxic. They'd fall back into their old patterns which would start out as friends and end up as lovers which usually end rather abusive.

After all, she had a secret too. She was sure Heath wouldn't want to hear it. But it was still so harsh to think of Heath with another guy. How could he? Why did he have to be gay?

Maria found herself crying about it. She felt so sad now. She had to wonder if she'd ever happy.

6 comments:

meg said...

I feel bad for Maria..but still...

simon n josh said...

wonder how he'll fit into the picture.

the oaks said...

I am curious about this Mason.

natalie said...

Oh, poor Maria :/ I wonder what her secret is?

cass and cady said...

Mason..hmmm..I gotta wonder about this.

lily said...

I hope Mason isn't trouble.